New Mommy Thoughts

I really enjoy reading Mommy blogs and hearing other Mommy stories about what worked or didn't work for them OR just their general thoughts on Motherhood.  So, I thought I'd share some of my own!

~ Breastfeeding ~

Seriously, no one tells you how freaking hard breast feeding is going to be.  Unfortunately I was only able to nurse for a couple weeks, then started pumping exclusively and at about 3 weeks, my supply just disappeared, which was extremely frustrating.  I had a really hard time with this and couldn't seem to get over that guilty feeling like I did something wrong.  I'm finally starting to come to grips with the fact that BF didn't work for me BUT my son is very happy and healthy (and that is the most important thing)!
Those first few days are SO hard.  I remember getting frustrated because I felt like I couldn't get it and Marshall wasn't figuring it out naturally either.  Initially he wasn't latching right and when he finally did, he would fall asleep after a couple minutes, so he was never satisfied.  He dropped weight pretty quickly the first couple days and being the instant paranoid new Mom, I wanted to supplement with a little formula because I was scared he was starved.  I had at least 5 different lactation consultants/nurses help me in the hospital.  They are very helpful but when I mentioned that I wanted to supplement with formula, they made me feel bad about it.  For those of you that are about to become a new Mommy, be ready for those lactation nurses to be up close and personal.  One of them pretty much laid in bed next to me with her head an inch away from mine, grabbing one of my girls while literally shoving it into Marshall's mouth.  I could feel her breathing on my neck.  Totally was not expecting that.  Good times.
 I will say, BF does not come natural to most.  I've talked to so many of my Mom friends for support and I know that I'm definitely not alone.   I'm thankful that my husband was so supportive about this as well.
Bottom line - Do what's best for you and your baby and don't let anyone make you feel guilty or bad for your decision!  BF is not for everyone.

~ Hormones after giving birth ~

Another thing that no one seems to talk much about.  The day Marshall was born, was pure adrenaline and excitement.  This continued obviously but by about the 3rd day, my hormones were all over the place and I was crying like crazy.  This went on for about a week after he was born.  I was so sensitive, feeling so happy, yet so sad at the same time.  It's hard to explain but I'm sure many women who have had a baby can relate.  Your hormones are so out of wack!  I cried because I couldn't feel movement in my belly any longer and I also cried because my pregnancy was over.  It does get better each day but it's been a month and I'm still SO sensitive.  Thanks again to my supportive Mom friends and my doctor, because I now know that I'm not crazy and it's totally normal.


~ Post baby body ~

Our bodies go through so many changes during pregnancy.  It becomes all about your baby and your body is working overtime to take care of that little one in your belly.
After giving birth, your body begins a whole new set of changes.  You lose water weight but you also end up with more "squishy" areas.  Or at least I did.   Unless you are one of those women that just miraculously looks perfect after giving birth - kuddos to you!   This has been hard for me to say the least.  I've been stressing about my weight, wishing I could get back to my normal pre-pregnancy body but then I look down at my sweet Marshall and realize that I need to chill.  He was so worth every change!  
It took 9 months for my body to go through all those changes with gaining weight, etc, so I need to be patient and realize that it will take time to lose the weight and get my body back to how I want it.


~ Marriage after baby ~

I'll be totally honest, during the last few months of pregnancy, I had a little anxiety on how a baby would change my relationship with Doug.  Truth is, my love for Doug turned into a deeper kind of love and our bond as husband and wife became much stronger.  Yes, it's definitely harder but you need to find a balance and work together as a team.  We're not perfect but we're figuring it out together.   
I really feel complete being a wife and a Mom.  Motherhood has changed me for the better.  There is also nothing better than seeing Doug love and take care of our son.

And lastly...
I kinda feel as women we need to stop questioning each other's decisions.  We all do things differently.  Some of you may want to BF until your baby is a year, some may go straight to formula and some may try it for a few weeks and realize it just doesn't work for them. Some of you may want your baby to sleep in the nursery from the very beginning, some may want them to sleep in your room until they're 3 months, or 6 months, or even a year.  My point is that what works for one person, may not work for another.  Becoming a new Mom is already hard enough and as Mom's, we need to encourage and support each other.

Marshall's BIRTHday!

It was the morning of July 24th, the morning we would meet our baby boy.  
I woke up at 4:30am (let's be serious, I barely slept that night), showered and we made it to the hospital right at 6am!  
The nurse came to get us, shortly after we arrived.  Everything moved so promptly.  At that point, I instantly felt the anxiety rush through my body.  Those of you who know me, know that I have horrible anxiety, horrible.  Pregnancy helped regulate it, but the morning of my c-section, it was like it came at me 100%.   The sweetest nurse was prepping me, getting my IV in and Doug and I were pretty much just hanging out, talking about what was to come.  BTW, I loved seeing him in scrubs!

When my doctor walked in and started talking to me about what was happening next, that's pretty much when I lost it and couldn't control the tears until after I saw my son.  I was a complete wreck the entire time.  As I continue to type this, I can't help but flash back to that day and start getting emotional all over again.  It was all truly amazing and miraculous.

7:30am quickly rolled around and there I went.  Doug had to wait in the hall while they got my epidural ready and got me situated.  As I lay there in the cold OR, I prayed to myself that our baby would be healthy and that everything would go smoothly.  This being my first child, I literally had no idea what to expect.  Yes, my doctor walked me through it step by step more than once but the unknowns were still so scary to me.  I remember crying so hard because I was scared and so nervous.  Since Doug wasn't there, my Doc let me squeeze his hand as the epidural was placed.  I kinda feel bad, I think I just about broke his hand.    All of a sudden, I was flushed with anxiety as I couldn't feel anything any longer.  I immediately got nauseated and had to keep taking deep breaths.  During all this, I cried the whole time, wondering when Doug would be able to come back into the room.  After what seemed like hours, he was finally next to me.  I knew they had gotten started because I heard my doctor tell me that I was doing great so far and I could also feel pressure.  I kept my eyes on Doug, clenching his hand as I just cried.  I kept asking if he could see anything.  I remember hearing one of the other doctors joking how our baby might come out wearing a cheesehead.  :)
At some point I told Doug that I loved him and all of a sudden I hear them say that they're about to push the baby out.  I felt pressure and tugging but no pain whatsoever.  I heard them say he had a lot of dark hair and then I heard the most beautiful sound, my son's first faint cry.  I kept asking Doug if he was ok and if he had everything.  Ha ha.  :)  
All of a sudden, this beautiful baby boy was placed on my chest and I seriously couldn't contain myself.  I will never forget that precious moment.  The moment that I shared with my husband, welcoming our baby boy into the world.  It was pure love at first sight.  
Shortly after surgery was done, there we went into the recovery room where we were able to spend a little time together with our son.  I told Doug that I fell more in love with him that day.  It truly brought us closer.   
I am beyond grateful, beyond blessed and am so incredibly happy to have our healthy baby boy! 

Marshall Douglas Eason was born at 7:55am, weighing 6lbs 9oz and 20 inches long.
Welcome to the world sweet baby boy! 

My thoughts on Mommyhood so far coming soon!

Five on Friday!

I LOVE Fridays!  Friday means the work week is over and I get to spend the weekend with my hubby.  This weekend is a bit sentimental for us - It's our last official weekend as just the two of us before baby arrives next week.  :)  We plan to relax and soak it up!

Now to the five things I am loving from this week...

~ ONE ~

Hospital bag on the dresser, pretty much ready to go!  As I lay in bed at night, I catch myself starring at it and smiling.   It was so fun putting a bag together and packing a cute little outfit for the little guy to come home in.  

~ TWO ~

One of the gals that hosts this Five on Friday link up posted this in her blog post yesterday.  As soon as I read it, I hysterically began laughing and thought of my husband (sorry honey).   ;)

~ THREE ~

I've been obsessing over this diaper bag for a month now.  I bought one that I'm not the happiest with and then I saw this one and knew I wanted it.  The only prob...it's been out of stock.  I need this, I want this and hopefully soon, I will get my hands on it!

~ FOUR ~

Totally dying over BabyGap's newest line - "First Safari" I think they're having 25% off sale right now but that's still not cheap enough - I can do better than that!  :)  

~ FIVE ~

Ok so I'm kicking myself that I didn't take a picture.  Total fail on my part.  But I still have to share.  I had never tried this before and my hubby made it for me last night for dinner.  The other day, he brined and smoked a chunk of Sockeye Salmon in our smoker.  Last night he made me a toasted whole wheat bagel with light cream cheese, smoked salmon and red onions.  He made his with capers but I'm not really a fan of plain capers.  It was to die for and I cannot wait to have it again.  So freakin good!

Well I hope everyone has a great weekend!  We plan to go dunk in the pool (since there's not much else to do in 100 degree weather) and enjoy one last date night for awhile.  

XOXOXO

38 weeks

As I am writing this post, I can't help but get a little teary eyed and sentimental that this will be my very last pregnancy update.  I've had so much fun documenting this journey and I am so glad I did.  

Less than a week to go - holy moly!  Well, unless he decides to vacate early ;)

I've been taking some random pics of my belly, since I won't have much longer to do that.  I will for sure miss my baby bump and I know I will miss feeling him move around.  I've had a wonderful pregnancy.  Besides the little annoyances here and there and this last month of being uncomfortable, I've loved every minute of it.  

Baby Bump and Watermelon Cravings ;)  
That WAS a quarter of a Watermelon and yup, I ate the whole thing. 

And onto my update for the week...

How big is the baby this week:  He should weigh about 6.8 pounds and measures around 19 1/2 inches.  
How far along?  38 weeks and 1 day
Due date: Baby boy will be arriving on July 24th via c-section 
The Bump:  Big and in the way.  ;)
Belly button in or out?  Still flat as a pancake
Wedding rings on or off:  On
Best moment of the week:  Doc appointment yesterday!  It was the last one!  We were able to hear his perfect and strong heartbeat.  We went over everything to prepare for next Wednesday - it's all so surreal.  
Sleep: Not good.  I wake up all the time and am just plain uncomfortable.  
Miss anything?  Everything!  I know I'll miss the bump and feeling his movement but boy am I ready to say goodbye to the belly (for now) ;)
Movement:  Lots of movement still.  I think he wants out!  
Food Cravings:  Watermelon, Ice Water and Ice fruity drinks.  Other than that, appetite is so blah.
Anything making you queasy or sick?  Nada.
Symptoms:  Lingering stuffiness and cough.  I can't wait to breathe again!  I'm so hot all the time.  It's been in the upper 90's to 100's here in Boise, so it's really hard to stay cool.  Yes, we have A/C, but it still feels so warm in the house
Labor Signs:   None whatsoever
Gender:  BOY!  
Happy or moody most of the time?  Emotional and so excited.  I cannot stop thinking about everything!  
Looking forward to:  My Mom gets here on Tuesday!!!  AND then it's baby day, the day I become a Mommy!  

Hope you have a great weekend!

xoxoxo

Marshall's Nursery

I'm excited to share some pictures of the nursery.  I think I'm done...I think ;)
I got some ideas from a couple of my favorite bloggers!

  

Nursery Sources

Wall Color - Stone Mason Gray by Valspar

Dresser - Hemnes 8 drawer dresser from Ikea (I'm still thinking of buying some cute knobs to switch out with the current ones)

Crib - Graco Sarah Classic 4-in-1 Convertible Crib in White (Amazon.com)

Chair and Ottoman - Both from Overstock.com (I would've loved to splurge and buy a plush glider with ottoman but SO PRICEY, so we just decided to use our old office chair and bought the ottoman to go with it.  It's not the most comfy nursery chair but it'll work for now)

Yellow Chevron Wood Cross - The Gretchen Collection on Etsy

Gray & Yellow Lamp - Hobby Lobby

Nightstand - Amazon.com

Gray Minky Boppy Cover - Little Owl's Nest on Etsy

Gray basket for books - TJMaxx

Storage boxes on dresser - Marshall's

Gray Chevron & Yellow Minky Blanket - Mrs PTB on Etsy

Gray Owl - Pier 1 Imports

"Today I will be happier than a bird with a french fry" print - Lexiphilia on Etsy

"You are my sunshine" print - jmdesign on Etsy

Chevron Gray & White pillow - Hobby Lobby

Chevron Gray & White Basket - TJMaxx

Zinc Letters - Anthropologie

Crane Drop Humidifier - Amazon.com

Frames - Target

I have searched and searched for a crib skirt and finally found one I love on Etsy BUT it's so ridiculously expensive.  Not sure if I will get one or not. 

Five on Friday!

ONE ~

In love with these zinc letters from Anthropologie that I got for Marshall's room.  They were kind of a pain in the rear to hang but I think I did a decent job. (Just don't ask me how many times I had to cover up nail holes with spackle, re-paint and then re-hang.)

Ta-da!

TWO ~

Enjoying these quiet mornings with my iced coffee and laptop.  :)  Dogs are outside, my favorite movie is on in the background (Father of the Bride) and I'm finding lots of great recipes on Pinterest!

THREE ~

I'm so sentimental these days about Doug and I becoming parents together to our little boy arriving on July 24th.  Just the thought of seeing him with our sweet boy sleeping on his chest, makes my heart go pitter patter.  I love this handsome guy and I am so grateful for this blessing we are about to receive.  

FOUR ~

Loving this picture & quote I came across on Pinterest.  This year has been a bit crazy.  However, reading this made me laugh and made me realize that I cannot let negativity get the best of me!

FIVE ~

I'm obsessing over this dress from The Limited.  I cannot wait to be back into my normal size clothes, after I lose a little baby weight of course.  I look at this cute dress and think "date night with the hubby," I just love it!  

Hope ya'll have a Happy Friday and a great weekend!  Our weekend consists of pool time and relaxing.  We only have two weekends left completely to ourselves.  ;)

37 weeks - Full Term!

How big is the baby this week:  He should weigh about 6 1/3 pounds and measures around 19 inches.  
How far along?  37 weeks
Due date: Baby boy will be arriving on July 24th via c-section due to my low lying placenta 
The Bump:  Large and in charge
Belly button in or out?  Still flat as a pancake
Wedding rings on or off:  On
Best moment of the week:  Doc appointment today!  Heard his heartbeat.  One more appointment next week and that's it - eeeeeeek!
Sleep: About the same.  I sleep pretty good, other than having to get up every half hour. 
Miss anything?  Everything at this point.  All the pressure is getting quite uncomfortable.  Just ready to meet him!
Movement:  Large movements which cause a ton of pressure.  It's still so great to me to feel him move but it can be quite uncomfortable.  Sometimes he'll be in a spot that's uncomfortable for Mama, so I drink a bunch of orange juice and he starts moving within 5 minutes. ;)
Food Cravings:  Nothing really.  I have been back to eating a ton of cold fruit and drinking lots of ice water, but that's about it.  My appetite is the same...kinda blah at this point.
Anything making you queasy or sick?  Nada.
Symptoms:  Lingering stuffiness and cough.    
Labor Signs:   Nope 
Gender:  BOY!  
Happy or moody most of the time?  I'm getting extremely sappy with this all happening so soon.  I'm so excited but very nervous for birth.  
Looking forward to:  Well, I have exactly two weeks until my baby boy is here, so I'm very much looking forward to July 24th!  We are definitely ready!  :)